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Last Thursday ago was the best birthday I ever had in my life..!!I thought it would be the worst day ever like I used to have on my every birthday day...I didn't expected something extradionary happened to me on that day.I felt so touched when all of my classmate sang me happy birthday on English class,when my crush wished me happy birthday which I didn't expected he would did that,when my mom treat me nicer and brought me to Secret Recipe to celebrated my birthday and it was the first birthday day I didn't feel down...I knew it wasn't a long-lasting happiness but it's okay.Unless it was the best present ever that god had gave to me.'Happiness' on a day...:')But everything turned upsidedown when I logged in my fb...I'm so stupid!!!I thought my wall will full of birthday wishes from my friends,my mates or whoever they are so I got online to thanks them and damn I'm so broken when there's no birthday wish.AT ALL!I felt unwanted,pointless to them...There's no one remember my birthday...I know sometimes I can't controll my emotions and just let them get over me..That's why world keep punishing me because I'm bad...I'm heartless..I'm stupid...I'm ugly...I don't deserve to be happy..........like there's no place on earth for me right....?I've sensed hate from my friends and ppl around me long time ago but I didn't trust it and let that kind of thinking away from my mind..and now I get paid............I'm so alone now....I don't want to trust people anymore.....I don't even want to look back anymore..guys....if you hate me why should you hide it and acting infront of me?Just walk away from my life.....let me go through this painful life alone........I'm so sorry cause I walked in to your life and ruin everything..I'm so sorry for my existence on your life....I used to be alone and I guess It's okay now if you guys walk away from my life...cause I'm fucking used to this.....sorry xx