Oct 28, 2011

I already done changing my music player..I put my favourite song in it. it is In my place by Coldplay..
this song made me almost crying...it was really suit for me because it makes me remember about my crush that I almost lost..he is the one Im in love with since I was14..
he got a serious disease that can make him die..I never see him but he was.
every night I cry worrying for him..woke up every morning with my eyes swollen..watching my face crying on the mirror...he made me crazy for him this far...
I've been trying to move on but It seems I can't live without any news about him..
Im so stupid sitting here and waiting for him to die without knowing I was in love with him.
I made a promise that i would wait for him no matter what will happen eventhough he were gone...
i miss him so much..i hope he know that Im here fight for every breathe he got..
i knew he can't survive..he was suffering for a bad disease..moreover,one of my friend that living near his house didn't see him around anymore..he wasn't leave any text at all and it was hard to find him now....but I leave my promises for him and I believe he is still alive and he still believe about us..I hope one day he won't keep hiding like this anymore....